Tuesday, December 15, 2009,
alright so hey hey everybody!!
we're in he beginning of our second week of PRCP. yesterday i managed a case...boy did i suck but im gonna do my best for tmr. IM OFF TODAY!! WOOT!
k so anyway. last friday i stayed over at lenny's cuz we had to bring cino the the vet to her all his matted fur shaved off. now he's a cute lil sphynx..wakakak!!
i still love him.
so the plan was for me to head home around 6pm on saturday but sis and her friends were over at my place cuz they were leaving for taiwan on sunday and had to be at the airport by 5am to check in. knowing them, they'd be late thus the sleep over.blessing in disguise cuz i asked mum and she said to come home on sunday. WOOT!! and the best part is I GOT TO ATTEND THE VERY FIRST MASS AT THE CHURCH OF THE DIVINE MERCY!! WHICH IS JUST OPPOSITE LENNY'S HOUSE!!! HOW COOL!! IT WAS FINALLY OPENED!!! AFTER SO LONG!!
so we were discussing what to do on sunday and we decided to head over to 313@somerset to checkout the sale at new look. boy did we get back on sunday evening with a shit load of stuff!!
lenny finally got her black leather bomber jacket which she craved for so dearly. it was going for 99.90 whilst at cotton on it was retailing at 139.90. STEAL!! i got a black jeans shirt dress for 19.90, faux jeans leggings for 19.90, blue heels for 19,90...ALL ON SALE!! and!! i applied for membership which meant $20 off the bomber jacket and additional 5% off all sales items which was everything!!! SO OMG!! VERY GOOD BUY!! i'd show u but they dont lemme take the pics form the actual site..maybe another time then!! wheeeee
being extremely pleased with our buys we headed back to lenny's place and cam whored!! its on my facebook profile so go check it out.
kinda excited to take 2 cases tmr but im just not confident..at all. but im gonna try my best.
I LOVE U LENNY!!
1:28 PM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009,
another super late update. nothing new from yours truly.
maybe u should remove the tag box thing. no one uses it anyway.
alright so when i left u, i was about to begin my 1 month gerontology attachments.
now im done with attachments and awaiting my PRCP posting. god. not looking forward to it.
anyway. singapore's so fricking small that i met lenny's friend/NYP senior who just happens to be my SN! [hello mahira, im talking about you dodo bird] ahahah it was funny.
on the last day of work i gave all the nice staff kinder bueno surprise eggs and when i gave mai one i told her that i found her familiar cuz ive seen her from fridae. and we both were like 'OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!' with the constant head nodding. funny as hell. then she said 'i wanted to ask you but felt it was weird cuz the moment i saw u walk into the ward i knew u were queer.' funny thing is i wanted to do the exact same thing but yeah. okay thats good. atleast my face isnt so straight looking-ish.
i told len about mahira the night before so she came down on my last day to pick me up from work and to catch up with mahira. funny man. darn small world. lenny's on attachments now.she aint happy but its my turn to relax,she had hers so bah!
gek and i are cracking our brains out...where the hell do we go and what the hell are we gonna do for halloween this year? i got my corset but no venue. great. might not even celebrate frickin halloween this year at this rate.
i think its just me, but staying at home makes me darn sleepy...i feel like a pig. sleeping till 11am, waking up, watching tv, using the net and then sleeping later at 11pm...
total opposite from how life is on attachments. DREADING PRCP BY THE WAY. hate it.
4:03 PM
Monday, September 28, 2009,
just my 4 pillars. XD and my cino baby baby baby love.
5:36 PM
Sunday, September 27, 2009,
its official. URTI has hit me for the 4th time now. i experience the following:
-severe sore throat
-copious amounts of phlegm that refuse to come out
-runny nose
-pain in my left ear upon swallowing
-hoarseness of voice and [this is new]
-generalized weakness
i think im hypoxic..subtle. but hypoxic none the less. maybe
whatever.
you know i hate myself. alot today
yesterday was just pure..evil.
didnt sleep at all.
parents were naggy.
i screwed up big time and lost my close friend..im so stupid. i want to kill myself really.
when i did manage to catch a short nap, i was interrupted countless times cuz the insurance agent was outside talking to them and they were laughing. any louder and they would be mistaken for having their own lil F1 race. so technically..i didnt nap at all.
then at night the symptoms started and they got worse today.
tmr i begin attachments.the next day is hell on earth and i wont have one of my pillars with me.
cassandra you fool
how could you do something like that!?
you fool...
6:44 PM
Saturday, September 26, 2009,
u know why i am acting this way. there's really no need to ask.
when u said stop, i did it.
when i said stop, you went ahead.
why do i want to see my close friends walk straight into the belly of the beast?
why do i want to see you experience the re-awakening of all feelings negative?
when it hurts it hurts. the words you say. and im sure that its all due to external stressors and i know i'm one of them. unnecessary.
but if you're happy i'll just be here on the side and really as long as u are happy...i couldnt care less about me and my overly emotional self.
im sorry to disappoint. im sorry for being a pain. im sorry for sticking my nose into such issues.
this is how much i care.
i do the same for the rest of my pillars and even more for family.
altruism..or so i hope to believe it is.
i'll learn to back down. i need to..my character is far too strong.
just know that..now
in this moment..
when you're soaring high up with her by your side
into the wide blue virgin canopy
look down occasionally, glance down and see
this small lil girl looking up at you with the trampoline
ready to break your fall if you ever do falter.
just remember me.
wont you sing with me
another song of freedom
its all i ever had.
redemption song
11:26 PM
alright! so this week was...rather relaxed which is good!!
monday was a public holiday cuz hari raya fell on a sunday so lenny and i hung out at gwc. watched the ugly truth which is a great show! chick flick yes but funny none the less. then it was off to ion orchard but we didnt stay long cuz the crowd was suffocating and i hated it. so then off to taka then to HMV and then to lenny's.
tuesday lenny had shift (A&E) so i met her after that.
wednesday was out with squid and sab. headed over to marina barrage to fly rainbow kite! [pictures on facebook]. the sun was SCORCHING HOT!! UNFORGIVING!! got sunburns on my face in the shape of my shades, forearms and mid thigh down. i thank god i wore a long sleeve shirt and rolled it up..yes it was black and i did pay for it but forearms better than whole arm sunburn so yesssss happy!!! sab was feeling faint so we headed off to marina square [marina barrage is a smoke-free facility!! fuck!!!] for milkshakes and well deserve fag sessionssss. after that was done i headed off the lenny's where i was manja-ed due to my sunburns. i surprised her by saying i couldnt stay over that night and when she found out she was estatic!! heeee. bought calamol lotion [calamine and menthol all in one for painful itchy sunburns..thanks baby love] and ive been applying it for 3 days now. no peeling so far and the tenderness has vamoooshed.
thursday woke up, had breakfast with lenny at the coffee shop opposite her house and then dropped her off at work. i hated that part. sigh. then i headed home.
then today! home the whole day. woke up at 2.30pm. nice.
tmr i have no idea what's in store for me. its probably along the lines of following mum and dad or heading over to len's. i'll decide later. i have alot of alone time now since lenny's asleep.
my poor love is sick. nose blocked, sore throat, lymph nodes on right side swollen and her left ones are semi swollen and she's running a fever too. sigh my poor baby. tmr she's heading over to the docs so maybe i'll head down.
kinda looking forward to the 1 month attachments starting next week. excited yet dreading it but i know it'll pass real fast since we're back in the ward system. means back to routine! something im comfortable with but not too happy about. i feel useful but with the cloud of 'student nurse' looming over me, i feel kinda mentally challenged too. ah well nothing new.
next week the dread comes from something else. something personal that i dont wanna talk about. we're prepared, i am too. i just worry for u love. just be safe. i love you.
1:05 AM
Sunday, September 20, 2009,
THE FULL HANNAH BILILIE POST!!
[why? CUZ SHE'S HOT!!]
6:57 PM
this blog of mine has been collecting cobwebs and dust bunnies. but no one cares. including myself.
mayb its time i get a new blog eh?
or a new blog skin. or make one. or proscrastinate getting or making one.
ah well whatever. i dont give a flying fucktard's ass
alright its september, the last academic year of your lives in NYP is over. long gone poof! out the window.
attachements have commenced and i want to cry.
nothing new. same old same old.
ED and OT at AH were fun. well OT had the dread of inhaling the fumes of the diathermy machine.
i like the describe it as Eau de burning hair and tar. exquisite.
ED was fun, i kinda knew that 2 certain someones would fall deeply in love but never would i have expected both to acctually get together.
anyway, what ever it is. good luck to u both.
so last week, met this crappy ass girlie names squid. i call her sotong but whatever, no one cares.
we've been hanging out alot lately with gek and i am proud to say that now i have my 4 pillars of strength. no longer 5 cuz..well...i dont think that 5th one fits the bill.
this week, monday and tuesday is with lenny, wednesday is with squid and sab maybe grace too, thurs and friday im free...ANY TAKERS?!?!
OH OH!!! OMG IM OBSESSED WITH HANNAH BILILIE FROM GOSSIP!!! SHE'S SO FUCKING HOT!!!
there are so many things i wish i could tell u guys here. but there are many spies.
just know that i love you, i wish you were mine. i really do miss u.
OKAY PICTURE TIME!! cuz my blog is boring as we all know it..
collage i did with shutterfly: 3 of my 4 pillars..
this was out with gek and squid on 14thsept,slacking at one fullerton:
one of squid's monsters, doesnt gek look like it?? XD:
this is where i flip out and say: OMF!! I LOOK LIKE A GUY!! A FUCKING EMO DUDE IF MY HAIR WAS SHORTER AND I DIDNT HAVE BOOBS!!:
squid miester with her own creation:
part of the mess on squid's table when i crashed there cuz i didnt wanna go home:
5:27 PM
Wednesday, August 05, 2009,
alright so.I FINALLY PASSED MY LAB TEST!! about time..
its week 16....1 week more to exams..1 week closer to working...1 week closer to being unable to call myself a student and to hang out with my schoolmates.
ya know how much that sucks?!? knowing all these? ARGH!
im gonna miss all the nonsense classes and bitching with all my crazy friends. i am acctually gonna miss doing projects. ANYTHING beats working.
today's my last presentation. my FYP. how nice. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!
im typing this at 8.45am. lab class was cancelled yesterday and today cuz ms sek is on MC. its weird cuz ms gwen was on MC for 2 days too...coincidence no?
k so yes. im tired. im hungry and i slept for 3 hours therefore i sound like i am stranded in the desert..the desperation in my voice for someone to take me away from my suffering!! argh!!
stayed up till 1 to wake lenny up only to find her awake and going back to sleep cuz her mum and bro were damn noisy [like watching the tv as if they were deaf, answering the phone only to shout as they reply their friend or whoever and screaming at lenny to do this and that. turn down the volume for crying out loud!!] and then cino was being his cute irritating self and mew-ing VERY VERY LOUDLY at her to wake up and manja him. so she slept at 3 or so i think.
yup yup. anyway. yeah..meow.
oh i forgot to mention..i got fined at yishun for throwing a cig butt on the floor. let me tell u what happened.
i 'ran' to yishun bus interchange to chase after lenny. we had a small fight again but its alright now. so tried to calm her down and everything and we were fagging. i noticed 2 ppl staring at our direction. i brushed it off thinking that its alright cuz i mean dude! we're 2 chicks hugging and kissing..who wouldnt stare? i was crying and then she decided to light up and so i lit up and then decided to flick the butt into the bushes nearby. then we talked,fagged again and cooled down before heading to the bus to her place. then i got booked. if u ask me..could they BE any more inconsiderate. dude im CRYING/CRIED!! why must u book someone huh? wtf! k fine u wanna book me...how bout u let me pick it up? give me a warning u bloody fucktards~~ fucking bastard children..so i gotta pay 300 bucks and if they send me a letter..i swear i will flip cuz they said they wouldnt!!
sigh..alright so back to module evaluationing and prep for presentation. whee! gah.
8:39 AM